Resisting Change, a personal story

As I thought about this other way of being still or Meditating, as discussed in the last Blog, Meditation has Different Forms, I had various thoughts of doubt come up, coupled with emotions and physical sensations.  “I am trying to control things.”  “I have to do it that way.”  “I have to be perfect.”  “I…”, well you get the picture.

It’s amazing how much we resist, how things like doubt and fear can leave us feeling alone and disconnected, how much I felt these things.

It’s amazing how a different idea, way of doing things, belief, can trigger these feeling in us.  No wonder our political arena resembles a Junior High School playground.  No wonder we have killed over these things; values, culture, Religion.

And it’s not going to change, regardless of what policies, social systems, etc. we have in place.  It will only change when we change, when we can sit with and love, if you will, ourselves, our own insecurities.  As our consciousness expands to embody all of us, including the shadows that terrify us, that lay hidden, that we blame on external forces like our spouse, our parents, etc.  It’s only then that we can know and embrace ourselves and others.

Namaste.

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